I took January 13th, 2010 off of work and life in general to mourn what once was but also to celebrate what is. I spent the day knitting for myself and taking a relaxing day and meditating.
Through this I have learned many things.
1. I am not alone. God is with me and He gives me strength.
2. People can be so cruel and not even realize it. They mean well but sometimes the
best thing to say is nothing. It sickens me to think that they actually think they are
helping me feel better.
3. Some of my co-workers and friends look at me differently. With some I can see the
pity in their eyes, others I can see the silent understanding and jut know that they
are there for me if i need to talk.
4. I now understand my family a little better.
5. I now understand Eric Clapton's song, "Tears in Heaven."
6. I can be happy for others through my pain.
7. I can help others through my pain.